A few of the bloggers I read choose for themselves a word for the year. I so wanted to find a word for last year but one never came to me. This year though without my even thinking about it one blossomed in my mind the first time someone said “my word for the year”. Just hearing the words and my word was suddenly fully bloomed.
Grow
I have felt so stagnated in these past few years on so many levels that I’m just plumb ready to burst. This year I am embracing my need to grow both figuratively and literally. I will garden with passion. I will read with purpose and I will stretch myself towards…something or perhaps somethings.
In this season of quiet, snow and ice I find myself spending some mental time on a list of sorts. It isn’t really a list as much as it is me, mentally shifting the cards I claim as my own around. Does this still fit? Does that still speak to me? What to I hold dear now and what can I let go because it is weighing my spirit down? What am I missing and what do I need to acknowledge more. It is comfortable and good or a rut.
I’m also flipping through the pages of my seed catalogs and itching to get into the dirt. Oh how I am longing for spring and the smell of the wet earth. I have a list of projects that need the thaw to get started.
I’m also digging through the stuff closets and spaces in my home. Spring cleaning is taking on new meaning for me this year. I am yearning for the spring thaw and the cleaning to begin. I’m no longer going to be bound by things. I am no longer going to keep “stuff” just for the sake of having it.
Do I want to clean it?
Does it hold real sentimental value or sentimental guilt?
Does it add a brightness to my world or just clutter?
At the moment it sometimes feels like pushing that snow boulder. Shifting my thinking away from the shoulds, coulds towards the can and will. At the same time there is a part of me that so would rather not do all that work. Do you have any idea how much crap a person can fit into a house! It boggles my mind sometimes how much junk we have that is really just pulling our entire house away from peaceful and cozy right to chaotic and cluttered.
But surely after all the hard work and rest we will feel fulfilled by our accomplishment. I’m so looking forward to seeing how this word plays throughout my year.
I’ve noticed this trend as well. It’s ever spoken to me, but you’re word resonats strongly. If I were to pick a word, you nail it on the head.
Holly’s last blog post..A House Anniversary
within the last few years we moved house *and* closed the school, leaving us with a huge amount of stuff that we had to cull through. it felt like it took f-o-r-e-v-e-r. :^) but it is such a good feeling to get rid of things (even things you have great sentimental feelings for, and i felt that about practically everything at the school!) and have a clean space. whew. i thought i would never get there. :^) good luck with your spring cleaning!
Lori’s last blog post..a naturalist’s workroom